VIRGINS

What is it about virgins that we love? Is it the innocence that they have. The thrill of the chase. Or even the thought of being the first?

It's such an arousal when it's something with a virgin. Something intriguing. Something that makes you want more.

Thoughts of how far can you push them before they crack. What's the line they won't cross. Just being able to be the one to figure it all put it's hot.

We all want the virginity factor of our life back. But here's the thing, it's not something one should just throw out there. It's sacred. It the forbidden fruit that we shouldn't mess with until it's ripe.

Yes we all want that virgin. See who can have them first. The thing about taking it away is that your taking a part of someone you can't give back.

It's such a thrill to have someone new at all the things you're used too. It astonishes to wonder what they would do. How would they be. Would they suck? Be okay? Amazingly a natural?

How are you suppose to act to a virgin who is completely in over their head. I think I'm falling for a virgin. It's the chase that I want to run after.

This Aspect of Life Called Culture.

When we look around and see what the world has provided with us on the place where we sit, sleep, and eat. It amazes me to see what a culturally diverse country we live in.

Being a Filipino in America it's quick to assume a stereotype. Big family. Huge gatherings, and what-not. But it's not always pretty. Yeah, it's huge on parties and all that good stuff but what else?

The huge thing about being in a Filipino environent at home is that you can be open about anything but when it comes to your sexuality it's super conservative.

Being born and raised catholic. My parents were mad when I decided to convert into christianity. Mainly due to the fact that I was tired of the whole ritual every week.

Being unhappy at the church I used to attend I searched for a place I could call home. But, what I looked for deep within my heart I could not find in a church.

I looked to be accepted within the religous part of my life and the family part as well.

Now all I can do is look to the future and never try to look in the past. My best friend asked today, "if you could tale back anything. What would it be ?" I said. To be open about who I was earlier in life.

Living a double life in a Filipino community is difficult to pursue. Being ashamed of who I really was did a number to my self-esteem.

Living in the now is what I work on every single day. Don't let the small things ruin a day. Enjoy it while you still can because I recently found put the hard way that life is too short. Enjoy every breathe and love the people you are around. But remember to do one thing. Always keep a smile on.

AND THEY LIVED....

And they lived happily ever after right? We all want the same things in life. To succeed in all aspirations and to find that true love. We strive to pass every endeavor handed to us on a silver plate. And we pick and choose what we put on it.

Take love for instance, I have yet to find it and so have many people. We long to find that companion to share the special moments together with. If you had the chance to be with the one person that you truly love but have nothing else. You would still love them right. Like they say, till death due us part.

We go through these hard moments that life throws at us but it's a lot easier when that person is there to lean on for support. It's amazing to actually be able to be taken off the playing field of singles.

When life throws you lemons you make lemonade, right? So when life throws you that special person. Well, you making wedding invitations. Lol.

This one girl from "the real housewives of orange county" said, get ready for this life together on a rollercoaster, but just remember to scream and the peaks, hold hands at the dips, and laugh at the loops.

It's totall cute when you see an old couple who still hold hands and share intimate moments together. When you see and old man still open the door for his wife on the regular.

TALKY blog. FAGSTAFF.(FLAGSTAFF, AZ.)

COFFEEHOUSE

It's amazing how cozy and fun the environment of a coffee house can be. Just sitting here with Michael on the laptops and drinking our coffee. There is such a diverse group of people. Ages vary. Race is multicultural and people are always a lot friendlier than those outside those barracaded doors.

It offers free internet connection for those who use it to communicate with one another, as how I am with you guys. Providing local magazines and information on whats to come in the near future. the environment is just a great place to relax and even get to know some locals. Especially this place, its such a different group.

Artwork from local artist's are displayed all through out the store. A friendly local greeting is made to everyone. Whether they be young and full of youth or old. Couches are nice and comfy easily secluded for those who just want to relax next to the warm fire. The music just gives you a great vibe to relax and get coffee and sit down.

So check out your local Coffeeshops. you never know who you'll meet.

but of course, with a smile. :)

SIMPLE

It's all of the simple things we take for granted that always seems to get taken away. Imagine if there weren't the birds chirping outside your window every morning to wake you up from that get away from reality called sleep. Or that crack outside the front porch that you can still remember how it got there.

Appreciate life

Take time to notice those small things. Look around at the flowers. Touch, smell it even. Look back at old photos. You never know what memory it will spark up. Look up and take a deep breath.

But more importantly, SMILE

WORK TIME

It's now that time again, I'm back at work.

visit me, make me smile

@

YOGURTLAND

PALM SPRINGS

GEOANGELOSPEAKS IN PALM SPRINGS

On a gloomy saturday, my family decided to head down to Palm Springs, yay. I have my headphones plugged in blasting symphonic randomness to my eardrums. But at least its a comfort to know, when you could be singing the hit the road blues, that anywhere else you could possible go after Los Angeles would be, a Desert Resort. I know I'm entitled to put a smile on my face the whole time, i just regret that it will have to be a fake one.

It's now 12:43 and we are planning to head there at 1. Hopefully this weekend will go faster than I hope. Due to the harsh reality that I will have to face when we arrive back home. The usual plans will go accordingly, Grandparents will hit the slots and tables, while I walk around hoping to stumble into something more exciting than shopping. But, I got to admit that the outlets there are possible the best.

Aside from it being a retired city and I will most likely be the youngest in the crowd of aged 50+. I will have to hold a grin and keep my head high. I know this weekend is just to take my mind of the crude incident that happened about exactly one week from now. But in all fairness I appreciate the thought of going out. I'll most likely end up walking around by myself.

Tomorrow's going to be fathers day. Great. I have to be in Palm Springs for that. Yay me. but isnt it IRONIC. Father's Day in Palm Springs? A desert filled with Daddies and Bears. hahah.

Kevin Stock I hope your surgery went well. I see you soon.

LOST

The pain of losing something so close and dear to your heart is the most excrutiating pain that any person can go through. More pain and sorrow than that of a tattoo, a punch in the face, a kick in the genitals. Well, you get the point. Dealing with it, is truly the difficult part and letting reality sink in just makes you want to curl into a ball and sit in the dark corner at the end of a narrow hallway. When things change and people go, its a shame that I held back so much emotions when they were still here. I wish I could just go and be myself around them.

Dealing with the pain is too hard for one person to handle. I know that they're in a better place, like they all say. Things will get better, it'll just take time. a lot of time. Mourning for a loss is tiring and weary. My eyes have been more swollen for each day that passes.

For this I say, Mom. I love you, Miss you. Forever you'll stay in my heart. Mahal kita MOMMY.

MOMMA'S BOY

Rest In Peace.

JUNE13.2009

D0ris Christy Estrada Arevalo

MOMMY DEAREST

iloveyouandmissyou

ALWAYS.

SAN FRANCISCO

GEOANGELO IS GOING TO SAN FRANCISCO

Yes I'm finally getting to go on a little vacation. I just hope I just hope i have a great time, but you know what I will. I'm leaving tonight right after work from JohnWayne Airport. I want to see everything while im there. I'm not so much excited to go there for a club as I would've been last year.

I'm going to be making the most of this trip because it will probably be the only one I take for the summer. But hey, a vacation is a vacation- whether it be 30 miles away or 30,000 miles away. You still have to make the most of any occassion. Weather report states that it will be mainly cloudy so I'll be bringing a few coats.

A good friend recently told me, that I should do what it takes to be happy in the end. He stated what would you do if you were going to die within the next week. Have you made a bucket list? I formed one but nothing to serious. I just want to travel, and travel a lot. I want to see all the different culture and all the colors in different and aspects of life.

This will be the very first time flying by myself. I'm actually excited to leave the area and get a chance to clear my head. I want to have some time to just relax and not worry about work, home, or anything of that nature. Just GeoAngelo time. We all need that sometime. Just some great quality ME time.

Ill keep updated on my trip actually ill update when I get back.

Have a wonderfilled weekend.

and of course with a smile on. :)

THE KLEPTO

Driving home on the 5 south I was listening to Ryan Seacrest on KIIS FM. Just so you know he has no dog, no child, but he is full of advices, so to speak. But he stated that he will take any comments on his advices if we as listeners find it the wrong advice to give.

So a lady calls stating that she has a six year old son. She was tired from work one night but she needed to get some things from target. While in the store she happens to bump into someone she knew. The next thing you know theyre in the car leaving the store, but the child has a new batman cellphone to play with. However, she did not pay, nor notice this item in the store. She has spawned another baby klepto!

The question is what should she do? Should she take him into the store have the child traumatized to never steal again. To face the managers and security to apologize for his wrong doings? But remember he is only six. Yet on the other had he has to learn at an early age that taking things that do not belong to you is wrong by any means, no matter how innocent you may think you are. Should she as the parent, go into the store apologize for the misunderstanding and pay for the item. But if she pays for the item the child gets what he wants. He'll think that if he cant have it, she'll just pay for it after he stills it.

The child should be traumatized into never stealing again.

but with a smile of course :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEVIN

Today is someone's special day. It's Kevin Stock's bday! I just want to wish you all the best and hope you have a fun day! Also in store for today is what I just finally saw on youtube! Go onto the site and search Project Natal! oh man its soooo sick!

But today, I actually woke up quite early for being a late waker upper. Its my day off today, and yet I'm still lying in bed. its pretty gloomy and cold. Don't really want to go outside. Maybe work out this morning-- go for a jog, maybe the gym, or even walk the Dixie? I just can't let awefully great day go to waste. (not again)

The other day I was on DaveyWavey blog site, www.breaktheillusion.com and there was a blog about deserving things. Its true, we all do deserve things. We deserve to be happy. Whether it be in relationships- lovers or non-lovers, necessities, materialistics things, and just life. we deserve it. We all have to do things that make us happy. It's how we find ourselves. Plus, how do we expect to find the other person who'd be perfect for us hen we, ourself, can't find our inner person.

So just take the time to make yourself happy. Do what it is that pleases you, no pun intended. But if you want to go for a walk, Walk. Don't let anything get in the way. You want to talk to that person, DO IT. What could it hurt? Never live life with regrets. It's too short to waste.

just one thing, do it with smile. :)

P.s to Gianina David, thanks for keeping up with my twitter and blogs! numero uno FAN! lol.

TOKEN

Yesterday, I was called into Laguna Beach for a friends birthday party. Not knowing that it was a party. I thought I was just going to be dancing. Later realizing that fact, I noticed that I was the only asian standing in the room. Shiit. Guess I'm going to be the token asian, once again.

As I got up to dance my confidence was shot down seeing that no one took more than one glance in my direction. I now know to say no to places where the demographic is stereotypically racist. Being an Asian in South part of Orange County. I just left with a disappointment.

CLUB INFO

PRIDEful.

As I stood on the side walk as the parade passed on. I took a moment to gaze upon each new face that surrounded me. Took each moment, breathtakingly. A smile on each face--drunk or what not. but still, a smile on each face. A warm feeling each presence gave as everyone came together for one occasion. A prideful event to share with each different individual. Happily standing there I saw two parents, from PFLAG. What an amazing parents. But the thing that really caught my eye was that they were two ASIAN parents. I mean, how rare do you see that, a stereotype of asians are that they are usually conservative and down to the nitty gritty with morals. They were proud parents of their child. A smile on their face showing everybody in the crowd that they were proud of their son or daughter even if they were gay or lesbian. 

As the parades went on Cornelius and I walked among crowds with a nod a cheerful smile. As the parade came to a conclusion we walked with everyone to one place. The gates to LB PRIDE `09. 

Music was flaring, shirts were off, alcohol was being drank. But still, an environment where everybody had a smile on their face. It was addiciting to catch each smile. Young, old, fat, skinny, muscular, black, white, asian, latino. Everyone was engaging in the act. Not a frown was seen. 

A few familiar faces were seen. A smile and hug was traded. But all in all. It was an amazing day. As the hours flew by, dancing took most of our time. The cutest part was when Cornelius and I went to the COUNTRY booth, were they were line dancing. It was so cute, almost like a choreography out of a movie. People weren't afraid to dance with strangers. 

It grew tiring as the time passed. Tired and worn out from all the dancing, walking, and might I say Drinking, we went to the House music once again. The rythm and the boom of the music just pumped every single body there with plethora of adrenaline. As my feet could not take any more we left. By the time we got home. I was DONE. a successful evening with my best friend and an amazing group of people. It's a shame to wait one more year for another event in LB. But hey, there's always LA and SD. :)

of course with smile. :)

GEOANGELO

SILENCE

Dealing with silence is quite a tough job. Can you just imagine where there is no noise. Imagine how long would it take to get an hour worth of silence in recording time. I just watched a Rob Bell video about noise. It goes to show you that silence is golden. For instance, he used the story of Elijah a man who's already beat down and tired, and God says to him, come to the mountains because, I will be there. So, Elijah goes up to the mountains and a huge gush of wind blows, and then earthquake happens, and then the mountain catches on fire. But, GOD isn't in those things. then lastly, a voice speaks to him and it was GOD.

 

We take for granted the littlest things imagine just silence in the world. No planes, honks, screaming people. Just peace and silence. and if GOD wasn't in the wind, the earthquake, and the fire. HE was just in the silence.

why is silence so hard to deal with?

BREAK THE SILENCE.

with a smile of course. :)

WORD?

Imagine if you were only to say ONE word. thats all ONE word. what would it be? and why? answer on the comments.

HAPPY MOM'S DAY

To all MOTHERS there, we thank you for our birth, shelter, care and comfort. YOU do so much. 

MOMMA's boy here. 

LIVE

LET LOOSE AND

LIVE TO PARTY

What could it hurt to rock it out. Just live life on the edge. Never been rock climbing? Go for it. Don't waste time living life plain jane. Do Something. Ask that Person out, what could it hurt? Just live to PARTY, rock it OUT!

GO CRAZY, get your ADRENALINE rush pumping, life's too short, MAKE sure you do what you want! ROCK IT OUT people. of course, with a smile. :)

SAVE THE DANDELIONS

SAVE THE DANDELIONS

sign up and pledge.

http://savethedandelions.org/

THE DO'S and DON'TS

MY 5DO'S and 5DON'TS on a FIRST DATE.

the DO's

1. OPEN THE DOOR FOR THEM. (chivalry is not dead guys.)
2. ASK THEM ABOUT THEIR DAY. ( sound intrested in them, for them. not just their looks)
   
3. SMILE AND ACKNOWLEDGE THEIR BEAUTY(its complimenting. plus they took the time to look good for you, least you could do is notice it.)
4. ENGAGE EYE CONTACT, (it makes it more believable when your talking.)
5. LET THEM ORDER THEIR MEAL. (your not their parent.)

the DON'TS

1. BRING UP EX- FLINGS.
2. CHECK YOUR PHONE, (unless its a life or death situation.)
3. BRING UP ANY SEX TALK. ( you'll score more points.)
4. BE NOSY INTO THEIR LIVES. (a person needs some personal space. leave that for the 2nd date. )
5. ASK TO COME INSIDE. (we all know where that ends up. it'll just be another hook-up.)

whats your DO's and DON'Ts on a FIRST DATE?

THURSDAY

CRYSTAL AND I LOVE THE BEACH, 

(especially on sunny thursdays)

what a GREAT day.

The LOFT Confessional.

LEMONS, INSEST.. MAYBE MORE.

THE KEY

A wise man once said, 

"I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody."

That's definitely true, as the nights pass on-- doing shows, dancing, working, and going to school (thank god I'm not putting maintaining a good relationship on that.) I look back and think, was this all just for me? Why did I decide to do these things? For my future, Nope. It's all for other people. Well, a huge percentage is.

Take doing shows, yes, dance captain is great, but who truly benefits from this? Not I. I go to rehearsals knowing the distance it takes to get to the studio, time it takes to teach a dance number and effort it takes to put things aside when shows come and go. I get nothing in return, a great big whoping "thanks, good job."

All these things are all mainly to please another person. School for my folks. I can't even choose my own major. Is my life truly carved for me to already walk? I'm just walking and following the maps my folks have drawn out for me. 

Take time to do this to please yourself. Love yourself. Think, is this making me happy or just other people. Yeah the limelight is great, but are you Happy? Think about it. A person can not possibly please every person in spite of their own happiness. People will take you for granted. Don't be afraid to say, "NO."

Make yourself Happy. Find self-satisfaction. Its easier to succeed in pleasing oneself, than an audience. Do your best, if it doesn't well? SCREW THE OTHER PERSON! At least you have your dignity. :)

Put a smile on. It'll be worth it . :)

I AM.

I AM JUST FED UP.....

______________

with life

work

school

relationships

fake people

self consciouness

fights

deaths

money

fame

fortune

stingy people

(sorry for venting)

THAT's ABOUT IT!

FIND YOUR WAY

How do we lose our way, when there are a plethora of different directions to choose from. How do we stray from our true identity and lose focus from our main agenda. Distractions are everywhere we turn, television, advertisement, internet, different scenes we choose to put ourselves in. A fortune cookie I cracked open stated, "keep true to ones self, it will be difficult." It truly blew my mind, on how blind-sighted we become when distraction come across our way. 

We try to abide by rules, such as our morals, followed by our intuitions, but yet we still further drift away from our journey to find our inner peace. Take a look at Bolt, yes people, the movie. He truly believed he was a character in a super hero flick. A complete 180 was made on his part to realizing he is just a plain average dog-- still super cute though.

We choose to put ourselves at risks when division on the paths we take start to split in different directions. Work overruns our life. Our main goal is to make more money to support the ones we love. Yet, we lose sight of the things that truly matter when we take overtime hours over family gatherings. 

Money, Sex, and Fame rule the lives of the youth and even the adults. When you have the money you're wanted, we lose sight of where we come from. Who were we didn't have all the glitz and glamour. Just your plain average Joe. That's who we will be when its all over. Just yourself- bare skin and all. 

So take a moment, have you lost sight of who you are? Has it all come down to money, sex, and fame. Is life just a Monopoly game board-- whoever has the most wins? Take away all of the things that you take for granted, would you still be happy with the life you are living at this very second? Cherish the things you already have.  You never know when you really need, it won't be there.

WAKE UP AND DO SOMETHING

As I sat on my bed as minutes passed and tv shows moved forward. I came across an epiphany, Why am I just wasting my day lounging. True, I'm Tired, Hungover, Sick? maybe. But the thing is there is such an abundance of adventures just waiting for us to take. Why do I choose to waste days after days just watching tv. Yes, its nice and relaxing but, what more can I do thats truely fulfilling?

Look around, the weather is a nice and cool 63 degrees, nice and cloudy but still enough sun. Jump outta bed, get my gym bag ready, head to the gym and work out all this alcohol. That's the healthy part of my day. Hit the jacuzzi and sweat out all my alcohol in the sauna. 

Drive down PCH, windows open, music blaring and hair blowing in the breeze. Stop and smell the roses, walk around the park. Something, anything  productive do it. Day off? hang with people you haven't seen in a long time. Invite someone to Lunch. Visit an old Family Member. Call someone you haven't talked too (not just a text, actual conversation.) 

Grab life by the horns, make life something worth living for. Live life to the FULLEST. enjoy every single breath. 

Love Yourself, Be Healthy, Love Everybody.

Cont.

March31

more pics to come.

sorry its dark

YES!!

HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!

im 19!

Amazing Day

This is late. But, Happy Birthday to Jessica Lee. 

Great Day for the beach.

GREEN DAY.

HAPPY

ST. PATRICKS

DAY!!

kiss me im, (not) Irish.

Pinch me, I wont be wearing green.

THE EYE

So walking down the street, many things may occur-- a quick glace, a smile, a grin, a nod. Many things that we can obviously focus our eyes on. Its the funniest things that happen to us when were walking and people notice you. Take walking around Long Beach, damn these people. Whats with the deal with EYE FUCKING! hahaha, people just do that on the regular basis. EYE fucking, damn its awkward when you actually do make I contact. :) but, all in all its still super funny!

MY WEEKEND.

Yeah, that's right, Walt Disney and I are having a reunion tomorrow! :)

(with Teddybear.)

Pictures to come. What a great day I'll pray for. 

Going to watch Fanny Pak tonight.

Dance tomorrow. 

Rehearse Sunday, Work later that night. 

(that's my weekend.)

SURVEY

C'mon now, everybody does this once in a while. So why not?

Who was the last person that threw you out of their life?
I really cant remember.

Where did you go last night ?
Redondo Beach

Tell me about what you' re wearing:
Boxers. That is all.

If you had one wish?
Be in a monogamous relationship.

What' s on your bedroom floor right now?
Carpet

What' s currently bothering you?
Why someone won't come back to CA.

How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
Lost. 

Do you miss anyone?
Yes, Nessa Rica Ramos.

Something you do when you are mad or upset ?
Vent in my blog.

Did you cry at all today ?
Nope.

Is there something you want to tell someone?
Yes.

Do you trust anyone?
Not just anyone, just the close ones.

What were you doing at 5 in the morning?
Sleeping.

Do you think you will still be in a relationship three months from now?
I wish.

Do you tend to make things complicated?
No, Simplicity is my key.

Do you have a tan?
Yes.

Do you have a high or low tolerance for pain?
High tolerance.

What is your worst habit?
Perfectionist.​

Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?
Yes.

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a B, C, G, H, J?
Yes.

Do you regret dating someone?
Yes.

Is there someone you don' t ever want to be out of your life? 
Yes.

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed? 
Yes. (:

Do you like to cuddle?
Love it.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see him/her?
Yes.

Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
Yes.

Is it okay to kiss people when you' re single?
Yes. 

Would you like to put last night on repeat and live it forever?
Not last night, But November 26, yes.

So from now on, your going to be asked unique questions, you ready?
Yes.

Have you thought about an ex today?
Yes.

Where is the person who has your heart at the moment?
In Redondo Beach. 

Would you date someone who lived in another state?
Reason why we broke up.

Could you handle a long distance relationship?
No.

When's the last time you said you were fine, but really weren't?
Two days ago.

Relationships or one night stands?
Relationships.

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
Not sure.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
iDGAF

Do you laugh a lot?
Yes.

Do you consider yourself lucky?
Yes.

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
My Friend, Korey.

You have to get a tattoo, where and what do you get?
Right shoulder koi fish and japanese waves

Could you cry right now?
No.

Who was your last text from? What did it say?
Korey, "I'm bored."

Are you friends with your exes?
Yes, at least I think so.

Do you believe in karma?
Yes.

Did you have a good birthday this year?
Idk, its coming, 31st of March.

Kiss on the first date?
Go with the Flow.

Are you okay with the life you live?
Yes

Did you say "fuck" today?
Yes.

What was your worst mistake in your life?
I'm not sure.

What's something you really want right now, be honest?
MONEY.

Do you like hugs?
Love them.

How is your relationship with your mother?
It's aiight.

Can you walk into a room full of strangers and maintain your confidence?
Yes.

If you were getting married tomorrow, do you know who'd be your Best Man?
EGhhhh.

Do you think that you’re a good person?
I think I am.

Do you think two people can last forever?
Yes. 

Do you give up easily?
No.

Honestly, if you could go back one month and change something would you?
Yes.

WHAT I CAME HOME TO

LOOK! I got a dog.

DAY OFF

Amazing day off yesterday. Now I got to go back to work for 4 days until another day off. lets suck it up. Do it for the money. :) err. I got a new dog. :) yess.

Not going to write so much, I have work in about 45 minutes. :) just a minor update, I'll write more when I get off, at 12am.. yes thats midnight :)

INSOMNIA

I Can't Sleep.

where the hell is Kim Wong when I need her.

anything else? no.

The Shit Week

Monday it is. So im finally done with having the shittest week ever. :) Last Wednesday I finally decided to take my car to get my brakes change, because ask anyone, they were Fucked Up! but now its running smoother than ever. :) I got my car back later that night, and went out to a clubs one year anniversary! wooh super crackin! Then I probably should have not drank so much, because when I left the club, I backed into someone. :( shit there goes running smooth, right?

Then thursday, I had rehearsal. That wasnt so bad. I decided i should go count tip at work so they have money for the week. I called and the girl that was suppose to stay and count left. So i had to count myself. :( on the way home i had to drop crystal off. And so, we were in the carpool lane, going the regular 80. I GET FREAKING PULLED OVER! WTF! so i get a speeding ticket. Now i have to go to my court appearance on the 17th and now i have another speeding ticket! DAMN! FML!

I had the Shittiest weekend! thanks Yogurtland!

I've had the worst week in about 2 days!! GREAT!

But hey its my day off tomorrow.... After working 5 days in a row. 

Ive been Featured in the gallery!

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So the night is young, and i sit staring at my phone as it connects to the other line. ring. That's about all I ever get. So i pace back and forth in my room, hoping my phone will ring and I will hear that voice I long to hear on the other end. But all I get if sign in and sign off tones on AIM. Waste of another day to go out and do something productive. But NO. I sit pondering whether or not to add 5 more missed calls on their phone. Scroll through the phone book and see who could be my distraction for the night. come across an old buddy, lets text them. "Hey, what are you up to?" and I get, "NM, U?" is that all we ever can say, proper grammar is not even in our vocabulary, sorry for going off on that tangent. I'm thinking, should we hang out or not? But everyone knows that anything after 12am is a booty call. RIGHT? So I check my phone to see if I've received anything in the last 30 minutes. still blank as a brand new page in a journal. So i give it one more try, why bother right? two rings, i hang up. Few minutes later, my phone rings. I jump out and grab to check who it is, well what do you know, if it isn't the devil themselves. "Hey, how you been? I miss you, when are you coming back home?" i get, "I think I'm going to be here for awhile." screw that, should i go days, weeks, even months long, waiting for that person to come back. what if they never do? should i still let life pass me by for one person. now i sit wondering what the hell should i do? should i? should i not? FUCVK. honestly, i am truly tired of playing second best. i would be willing to put in effort if it was worth the suffering. im just totally over the stupid phone. i wish i was like kevin, hehe. no phone. no disruptions. free alone time. so OPEN. Well screw this. i had to put this in writing, i couldn't sleep. i need to vent. ring. ring. ring. you have reached...... please leave your message after the tone..................DONE.

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WHY do we?

Negativity is the end of all of us.

Why do we choose to be such pessimistic. When things come at you hard, you expect it to be 10 times worst. Here's how you get over it. Think Happy, be Optimistic. Make the most of any experience. :)

Epiphany

So, today at work, I came to notice something. When people are friendly they want something in return. Actually no, that not what I noticed. I saw an RCG today, and it reminded me of another person. Damn were they cute. sitting with a bunch of Asian Girls. mmmmhmm. Yeah work totally sucked today, I thought i had work from 630-1130, but my boss called me at 545 asking why i wasnt there yet? Shit! By the time i got into work it was 6. Other than that tonight was just SUPER busy like no other. I was visited by a couple of old Friends, which helped the night go a lot faster than it already was. That is true, time flies when youre having fun. As so there I was ringing the whole night, not able to converse with my co-worker. Grrr, hate it when that happens. Now is 1015 and she and I have not had our 30 minute breaks. Im thinking if i get on break at 1030 ill be back 11, then she goes and comes back at 1130. Damn I'm going to have to stay longer. Shit! 

Now I had realized now that im going to be at work until closing. So I made the most of it. Other than that, Ugh nothing. Oh, there's this CUTIE like no other that works next door. Damn Sexy, but I should'nt holler. Oh and my boss bought me Fries. So bad for me, and so I ate half. hehe. Gotta watch that figure. btdubs, thanks to Davey Wavey for workout videos. And so the night goes on. I'm already looking forward to when i get off. 

Now some intellect, 
"People seem to enjoy things more when they know a lot of other people have been left out of the pleasure." - Russell Baker

We definitely find pleasure in things that we have and others dont. Take fashion for example, we want the style that no one has. As individuals, we push things to where we have to be the best in everything. That's just how we work. If they have it, you dont want it. We want what others cant have. Like people, we want that person we cant have. We want it more because its a chase. Its that thrill of trying to catch something that motivates us to do things. If there was no gain, would we still be trying to abtain it? No. 

It angers us when we see other people have the finer things in life that we want. Take for example, youre driving, in an okay Honda, not old and you see next to you a Brand new BMW. Damn, dont you hate that other person now? That's how we are, Envy is one of the most driven sins that we condone in. Just take everything as a sign. If you get all the finer things now, what is there to look for. yeah, you cant use it when youre older but there will always be something bigger, better, and something you want more then the previous edition. Take things as they come, dont splurge, use what you have, No more, No less.

Wonder Girl

Damn these bitches ROCK the house!

YOGURT FOR YOU.

The Yogurt craze is all over. There are so many different places to get the delicious meal. But the two that stand out the most is, Yogurtland and Pinkberry. Two different concepts, 

Pinkberry has 3 flavors--Plain tart, Blueberry tart, and green tea. You get to pay for each additional topping. choices in size vary from small, medium, and large. Honestly, they charge way to much for their servings. I bought 2 Small yogurts with 2 topping each, it came out to $8 something. UNBELIEVABLE.

Then there's the almighty Yogurtland, not to be bias but come on, its self serve 30 cents an ounce, how much more of a bargain is that. :) 16 and more flavors to choose from, and the toppings are limitless, put as much as you want. its by weight. for $3 you can get a good amount of yogurt and a decent amount of toppings. 

Question here: Which do you prefer, Yogurtland or Pinkberry?

Booty Call

What is it, with late night phone calls looking to "hang out?" Do people really just want to hang out? Highly doubt it. But with that said, every one know where "hanging out" after midnight leads. ughh huhh. 

Take for example this person-- not saying who-- says, "how come it seems like I'm the only one whos buzzed when you come over," maybe if they didnt drink before I came over, we would be drunk, TOGETHER. 

Another person said, dont let this pretty face fool you. I know every game in a player's handbook. Great. Then why do you still think I come over at the drop of a button. call it being insecure, or naive. But hey, someone needs to fill that gap, RIGHT? 

then on my igoogle today there was a quote, "No man is exempt from saying silly things; the mischief is to say them deliberately."Michel de Montaigne Any guy can spit game to get into someone's pants. We all like to be flattered and complimented. Its Human Nature. 

But enough booty calls for now. Lets just not beat around the bush. You want to FUCK, say it. Just dont say "Let's hang," when you're looking for a piece of ASS. right? If that person truly did want to hang. would they still want to the next day, why so late. why so random? its just a quickie. get in, get out, get it over with. That's how we all do things. People lets not get attached to some random fling, do to them exactly what they're called. Fling a fling. :) 

But for now. Screw Booty Calls. dont beat around the bush. Say it from the beginning what you truly want. It'll make it easier for both of us. :)