Wednesday, September 16, 2009

VIRGINS

What is it about virgins that we love? Is it the innocence that they have. The thrill of the chase. Or even the thought of being the first?

It's such an arousal when it's something with a virgin. Something intriguing. Something that makes you want more.

Thoughts of how far can you push them before they crack. What's the line they won't cross. Just being able to be the one to figure it all put it's hot.

We all want the virginity factor of our life back. But here's the thing, it's not something one should just throw out there. It's sacred. It the forbidden fruit that we shouldn't mess with until it's ripe.

Yes we all want that virgin. See who can have them first. The thing about taking it away is that your taking a part of someone you can't give back.

It's such a thrill to have someone new at all the things you're used too. It astonishes to wonder what they would do. How would they be. Would they suck? Be okay? Amazingly a natural?

How are you suppose to act to a virgin who is completely in over their head. I think I'm falling for a virgin. It's the chase that I want to run after.

Monday, September 14, 2009

This Aspect of Life Called Culture.

When we look around and see what the world has provided with us on the place where we sit, sleep, and eat. It amazes me to see what a culturally diverse country we live in.

Being a Filipino in America it's quick to assume a stereotype. Big family. Huge gatherings, and what-not. But it's not always pretty. Yeah, it's huge on parties and all that good stuff but what else?

The huge thing about being in a Filipino environent at home is that you can be open about anything but when it comes to your sexuality it's super conservative.

Being born and raised catholic. My parents were mad when I decided to convert into christianity. Mainly due to the fact that I was tired of the whole ritual every week.

Being unhappy at the church I used to attend I searched for a place I could call home. But, what I looked for deep within my heart I could not find in a church.

I looked to be accepted within the religous part of my life and the family part as well.

Now all I can do is look to the future and never try to look in the past. My best friend asked today, "if you could tale back anything. What would it be ?" I said. To be open about who I was earlier in life.

Living a double life in a Filipino community is difficult to pursue. Being ashamed of who I really was did a number to my self-esteem.

Living in the now is what I work on every single day. Don't let the small things ruin a day. Enjoy it while you still can because I recently found put the hard way that life is too short. Enjoy every breathe and love the people you are around. But remember to do one thing. Always keep a smile on.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

AND THEY LIVED....

And they lived happily ever after right? We all want the same things in life. To succeed in all aspirations and to find that true love. We strive to pass every endeavor handed to us on a silver plate. And we pick and choose what we put on it.

Take love for instance, I have yet to find it and so have many people. We long to find that companion to share the special moments together with. If you had the chance to be with the one person that you truly love but have nothing else. You would still love them right. Like they say, till death due us part.

We go through these hard moments that life throws at us but it's a lot easier when that person is there to lean on for support. It's amazing to actually be able to be taken off the playing field of singles.

When life throws you lemons you make lemonade, right? So when life throws you that special person. Well, you making wedding invitations. Lol.

This one girl from "the real housewives of orange county" said, get ready for this life together on a rollercoaster, but just remember to scream and the peaks, hold hands at the dips, and laugh at the loops.

It's totall cute when you see an old couple who still hold hands and share intimate moments together. When you see and old man still open the door for his wife on the regular.